Disclamers and about.

Welcome, dear non-existent reader. I hope I am able to provide some insight for you, if you do exist, but the real purpose is to have a documented version of every thought I consider worthy of jotting down. Take everything in relativity and pay it no mind, it's but the opinion of a mind plague with many flaws and imperfections. Do enjoy your stay.

I do not wish to make your or my life any better or worse. I wish to relieve things that do not exist from existence. Thought it may seem a negative outlook on life, many of the things I say can free you. Everyone is disposable, thus you are free to make as many mistakes with people as you can, as long as you can cope with consequence. There is no greater purpose in living and everyone is worthless, ergo whatever you do you cannot fail, you are free to try.
I also don't proof read my stuff.


Friday, June 22, 2012

Right-Click > Convert to... analogy

Alright. Say you're this kid born in the  1920's and you never meet your father. Say your mother and everyone else tells you that your father is a highly influential illusive rich man that will always be watching you but never interferes dirrectly with your life. You also get told he loves you very much, but if you do not believe he's your father you will get beat up pretty bad. So you go through life and he pays a bunch of guys to pick on you in high school, you get fired from every job, but he also leaves random 100$ bills you find and pays this one girl at some point to show affection to you, but you don't think that he actually does all of this even though the same people tell you he does. So you grow up not to believe in him because if he is really rich and loves you he wouldn't let you have such a shitty life, and you can't afford a private detective and DNA tests don't exist for you to prove anything. And then one day you randomly run into him and you get knocked out. You wake up in this red room where an ex-employee of him just beats the living shit out of you and then nurses you back to health to beat the shit out of you again. For the rest of your life. And your father is there watching. Because he loves you.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Serial killers and you

         Intro
I think I was 14 by the time  I had a serial killer idea. And yes, I was stupid enough for a while that I went outside examining the area and people with these crazy thoughts. Anyway , the keyword with this thing is evidence. One must be absolutely sure no evidence is left behind. With how stuff works especially today, leaving a 2mm bit of hair is equal to you getting caught. My idea would involve putting plenty of money into it which springs American Psycho into mind.

        Weapons
The only thing reusable would be the car used for transport but even that might be a means of tying you to the murders. For weapons and clothes always buy from random stores without a pattern. Use stuff that is everyday material but can be used as a weapon (scissor, nail gun, hammer, screwdriver (heh, tools)) and. Clothes have to be dark colors but throw in a random light colored shirt occasionally which you don't use. Shop out the zone you live and make no comments about the stuff you buy unless asked and then reply casually.

         The act
 The downside is that this takes all personality out of killing. You have no pattern, killing must be done swiftly so no enjoyment, no police fame but then again that is what drags everyone down, the point is just never being caught. Second of all your state of mind is important, as you must have enough mental capacity to remain unchanged mentally in any means and give no hint that you ever did anything like this. This makes the murders seem like disappearances with no trace if you made sure enough that there is no evidence behind. Every act must be carried out on a random day, and not more than twice maybe per year.  First of all examine the area thoroughly looking for blind spots, obviously do it at night, pick completely random victims and don't have any reason to do it, carry out the murder as fast as possible making sure noise isn't a problem. Also falling into patterns is a bad idea. 

         Disposing of the act
Now I think that the solution is fire. Acquire a means of transporting your dead victim to a place where you can be sure nobody will see you pull them out and start a fire such as middle of the woods and make the place different every time. Do it in a different city/state every time is also a good option but that incriminates you with travelling around too much so try to avoid being recorded doing this. Burn both the body, the weapon and the clothes you were wearing during the murder in an as small as possible fire ( takes time so you might lose a night) and then scatter ash and burry skeleton as well as pull out the teeth and skull and bury them much farther, spread out bones and the remains of the weapon.

         Dealing with the outcome
The thing is this might actually spark a pattern, and you will get your fame but when you do hear word of it you must act shocked but not show interest more than the average person. Do not follow the mediatization of your acts, and keep absolutely nothing that might tie you to the murder at all.

        Outro
I'm obviously not going to be stupid enough to do it as I think I would take no pleasure in murdering random people and I did write this whole stuff so it's going to be easy to recognize it by someone who read it (nobody, ever). I just felt that the thought process might be interesting.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Shit I need to remember to verify maybe

  •  Being gay is natural selection.
  •  The only thing that can be perfect is pure inexistence(not: things you imagined that don't exist).
  •  Everyone is stupid.
  •  There are no judeo-christian gods, and no poly-theistic religion gods either.
  •  Fetishes derive from the subconscious due to some event.
  •  There is no reason for us to ponder the workings of things or even us being rational.
  •  Racism is part of survival instinct and/or natural selection.
  •  Everything living beings do is due to survival instinct.
  •  Most stupid people want to stand out, therfore do stupid stuff. They all believe they are unique.
  • Sleep has no function to the phyiscal body, just to the brain, therefore pysical fatigue due to lack of sleep doesn't exist.
  • All we say and do is the result of a cognitive process, conscious or subconscious, everything we do has a reason beside surivial instinct OR is our understanding of survival instinct.